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thenetvines
The court footage shows him smirking, and laughing.
5exyPanda
Its never about justice, only what they can profit off.
WalksWithNoFear
It’s a legal system, not a justice system.
pandasmakemehappy
You don't have to be particularly intelligent or disciplined to be law enforcement in the USA.
BrdCdn
You won't get hired if you are.
UnluckyLunkhead
The department was likely happy to pay him to go away. Just don't ever come back.
Totallycasual
Such a disturbing video, it was like a life or death game of Simon Says.
bankruptsteve
Oh, this gets so much crazier when you listen to the victim wife’s tictocs(the birthing tree). I guess when he filed for bankruptcy, he —-
also requested to keep the gun with the (you’re fucked) engraving. Cause I guess when you have ptsd, you wanna keep the weapon associated —
to the events that caused the ptsd? He’s probably going to try and eBay the gun for 100k like that one dude did.
GrumpyOldMillennial
George Zimmerman.
That’s the one, thanks.
friedmonkey
Nasty piece of shit. That video was heartbreaking!
Snoopy101x
More and more each day I agree with and understand Frank Castle
skapanda616
Clarysage
Don't forget 'asked for and allowed to keep the murder weapon.'
jimidorjames2
What's his address?
DangerTrain
This sack of shit should be in jail. But instead, he gets to retire early.
ImgurPlz
He looks like a psychopath.
OtterSpaceExplorer
That's a requirement to be a cop in the US.
Trunkmonkay
He was involved in the shooting but he was NOT the one barking the commands. His superior was the one barking commands.
SarahKercz
This guy looks like he stalks teenage girls online.
svennisiggi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tgzo1fC49RY Mr ICE T with some refreshing perspective on the matter.
MemeLuminous
So police depts don’t do psychological tests or background checks.
MPatt08
Ffs
londonosierra2000
What does he know?
minatheghost
Works for a steel company in Glendale Arizona
thinlyveilednonsense
Gross incompetence and reckless indifference to the safety of others; they are dangerously under-trained.
SamaelTheVenomOfGod
Training isn't going to stop a sociopath from killing. Consequences do that. End qualified immunity.
ComfyPotato
You’re not wrong, but this case was a lot more than that
RabidBaby89
Would you please enlighten me? Sorry I don't know much of it
It’s graphic, if you can’t already tell: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shooting_of_Daniel_Shaver
HypnoJack
There are also many who receive the badge and gun but, in truth, are just not cut out to be cops. Like those easily spooked.
Nanuek
Not relevant to this case though. This is neither a training nor a performance under pressure issue
Neither mine nor the comment I was replying to were talking specifically about this case.
TheActualDonKnotts
A lot of them are also psychopaths that want to hurt and kill people.
indyliberal
No training can fix what’s wrong with this murderer.
ShamaOA
It's not about training, it's about the job they do and the impunity with which they do it.
ZAPZAPMOTHAFUCKA
My question is, how the fuck are you supposed to crawl on your knees, with your feet crossed and your hands on your head?... Like WTFF?
Lobangpuki
He didn't have too when the cop ordered him to crawl towards them.
MorbidTitties
Hold up, let me animorph into a snake real quick so I don’t get shot ?
SewerRanger
You're not, but when you don't do it, then you're resisting arrest and not complying with an officers command so force is now "justified"
DanniLuxgarbe
Or, to take the position of a police advocate: the conflicting orders are deliberate ploy to try to force the suspect to use up mental /1
I can buy that's the original intention, but when it's allowed to be used as an excuse for the person "not complying" is where things go
wrong and shows that it needs to be fixed
bandwidth so they are busy thinking about how the FUCK you can possibly comply instead of thinking about how to attack. Doesn't fucking work
since it just gives an opportunity to the shittier cops to, as you said, swing the non-compliance cudgel and shoot ya.
Cr4zyC4tLady
Right, and I get the devils advocate thing. But I’ve mostly met the bad one. Very very few of the “good ones”. So hard for me to believe.
tbomber
Anytime theres a news story about a cop seemingly killed at random,this is the type of shit I think of and wonder what they got away with.
Adualion
Police have been getting away with way more than anyone knows for way longer than anyone can remember
ExtraJudicial
The "first" incident is never really the first.
Had a local cop killed. Given full honors. The truth was he was dirty and was running a protection racket. One of the dealers killed him
Because he got tired of the squeeze. None of this ever became official or common knowledge. The dealer was never arrested either....
dickable
I tend to smile, because I know it caught up to them. It's not justice, but sometimes it's all the accountability you can get.
datphone777365
When?
TormentedPenguin
But it's usually the good cops getting killed, and that is why the good cops hate bad cops more, they are the one's in danger from it.
ArkoneAxon
This is why good cops need to finally accept: the "don't snitch" stuff NEVER helps good people. Just the bad ones.
lots of cops report other cops.. its just never in the news, cuz blueman bad.
It's been reported here on Imgur plenty of times - along with how the bad cops suffered no repurcussions and the "snitches" got punished.
How is it usually good cops getting killed? Is there a statistic i can look up? Serious ?...does someone keep track?
just look up the police killed during ambushes.. it's never the assholes, usually random cops, and sometimes not even with same dept.
I could understand someone going after a specific cop for a specific reason, but that is never the case.
TjD1974
Seriously, from a european point of view the whole US justice system is a clusterfuck
katejo2000
hahaha "justice" system.
as a European you also don't have cities with 3 dozen shootings and 6 homicides in a weekend.. That's Chicago alone.
phillysokayest
As a European city they also have nowhere near the same economic inequality
neither do we in Canada, which is why I always opt to have communities work together over shit like gun control. Education is priority.
Or both? Lol
MrGnatJonesEsq
From an American pov, the whole US justice system is a clusterfuck.
pareidoliaperson
Watching this from overseas too and I'm like ? also ar15, with a cop??
Asteroidrules
Police carry guns, that's not uncommon.
MrNardtastic
They dont need AR-15s
Most European police carry G36s.
whatsisname
Point for accuracy: Brailsford was not the one shouting out the commands, it was another cop who was playing lethal simon says. That other
Grey56
Thank you for clarifying. Makes it worse that the department saw fit to send what are obviously young LEO's into such a situation.
how hard to say.. turn around, on knees. interlock fingers...Police then approach like a felony stop.. done. This is one of the worst shoots
pyr0chaos
Its not hard, they didnt care. He just wanted to fire his shooty shooty bang bang at the "bad guy"
Yeah, they told him like 3 times that they’d shoot him. They wanted to. There was no reason not to approach and cuff him.
and they need to be locked up. His ass needs to be sued civil so the widow can have his pension.
cop has fled to the Philippines, and he's just as much responsible.
PinkyTheUnicorn2
Sounds like he went to the perfect place if he wants to be a cop who shoots civilians.
CongratsYouAreHereNow
Someone could go there and cut his nuts off if they were so inclined
HollywoodHells
Don't forget to sprinkle a lil crack on him and call the Filipino cops. That's entertainment.
itsmy1stsmokebreak
I feel like I remember 2 cops yelling conflicting orders for a bit at first but I'm not watching it again to verify.
Greyeyes1973
It's a common technique. Keep barking conflicting orders and it keeps them disoriented
Sound like a great way to run into those "they're resisting" situations. But my comment's based off memory so I could be wrong on this one.
You’re exactly right. The entire time they scream conflicting orders. They’re trained that way to justify force. It’s a training problem.
gashmaneatspie
Philip grew up having his lunch $ taken from him on the schoolyard.Got himself a badge and instantly became a faux tough guy he is a POS
SciFiGuy2018
The video is gut wrenching.
oowt
You could see him jerking himself off in his head given all the power he was wielding. I am power itself!
DHDragon
"I'm not here to be tactful or diplomatic with you." Literal quote from the asshole. Caught on body cam.
amiurume
The video haunts me.
grizel
Is this the cop that shot the guy in the hotel hallway?
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Ikindajustliketopopoff
Let’s not do that
buffalowineguy
You spelled "taxpayer burden" wrong.
Shellbear3000
He murdered that poor guy. Breaks my heart! I would be dead if it were me!
evastria
Yep, that murderer Philip Brailsford
SarahDancePainter
Talking about Philip Brailsford, the murderer? I coulda sworn we were talking about PhilipBrailsford, the murderer who murdered people.
sandwichmunchies
Daniel Shaver was his name. I'll never forget his sobs and pleas.
Nalianna
He's the one that murdered Daniel Shaver, yes.
smirkinchicken
Yes. It's.. It's just a terrible to watch video.
HairySweatNoodle
No protests for this?
Plumberdude
The video is fuckin disturbing to say the least
Avlaen
yup fuck him with a fucking rusty spoon in the ear.
donutposse11337
Ouch. Right in the hallway
Codybill
Innocent man with his hands up, begging for his life
AnticlockwiseMetamorphosis
A lot of stuff that disturbs me doesn't "stick in my head", but I will never be able to forget the footage from that.
IllBeOverAt5
I really wish I hadn't watched it
And I've done a co-op with hospital security in emergency/psychiatry. Nothing there compared to this video.
ThePip
Cop told victim to fall on his face if he has to but he better not put his hands down. The poor drunk victim's shorts were falling off and
he reached to pull them up and got pelleted with dozens of shots. They just had to walk over to him instead. They had bulletproof vests. :(
mratio
JFC
ISillyRabbit
*murdered....
brantstamps
Shmurdered
Silly rabbit, truth is for kids ;)
MechaNinja
I mean yeah he murdered him but saying he shot him is also accurate.
YourUpstairsNeighbor
Shot can sometimes result in both parties involved living. "Killed" is more accurate.
MDAlchemist
"killed" is more precise, and "murdered" even More so. But "shot" is just as accurate. (Precision=/=accuracy)
RegaraHontha
He was shot, he was killed, AND he was murdered. Killed/murdered isn't more accurate, it's listing the a part of what happened.
Also the fact that people can get shot and survive is irrelevant. with your logic i could argue you're more inaccurate because you're 1/2
nclu
Body mineral lead level adjustment
lumberjackman
a vaccine to protect against the most annoying facets of life, like embarrassing situations
Demonlettuce
Aliven't
danceswithkittons
Dark and satisfying
IAmDrBanner
Yes, just one mistake the OP did is that the guy yelling orders and the guy who shot are not the same person.
Carlinium
Ooft pretty big distinction. So is the guy pictured the guy giving orders or the guy shooting.
That is the guy who took the shot.
JackieTreehornProductions
they both gave conflicting orders
They are both assholes, I am not defending either. I am just saying they weren't the same person.
RatchetnClank
Real hard to watch, don’t suggest you watch it unless you want to ruin your day
Oh god. I read this and STILL watched it and my heart fucking HURTS now. Oh fuck. Dammit.
yep
Ah, a proper cunt then...Untrained assholes on a powertrip...
BusterH
v
GrizzlySaint
DOT
What the ....
thatguywhohasnoname
Please tell me that was intended for effect
IceWeaselX
Nope, just a plain failure. He was bleeding, but he tried to play it off.
Nah, he shot himself
L4doNG
And he asked to keep his gun (which he got). PTSD my ass. A nice reminder.
skuldthenornir
People can be weird but from my own experience I wanted to burn everything connected to the source of my ptsd.
ImmaCatImmaSexyCat
Evil bastard kept a souvenir of his kill like a goddamn serial killer.
Misterdruglicious
PTSD "means" you want to kill yourself with your weapon because you feel helpless and overwhelmed and thats the only thing you can feel?
I think I have PTSD, on good days I still fantasize about blowing my brains out, not like willfull fantasy, its like shivers you feel it
then you dont, but you know you felt it
KatieIsALady
Sure, we're saying if this guy has PTSD from this incident maybe he deserves it.
well I guess PTSD is a spectrum today I learned
do you think Nazi subjects got PTSD from killing their own people, absolutely no sympathy for this guy he deserves to hang
my point is if doing something bad gives you ptsd you desreve it
That’s not ptsd. That some other form of mental illness. Ptsd often has people reliving traumatic events.
but I dont think it is ptsd, more I just remember things well
I relive the events in my mind, its what makes the feelings not feel the same way, stopped doing weed and alcohol, mush helped, so did mdma
theres this time my dad was riding with me sitting in front snowmobile, five foot high jump comes up he falls off I go off smash my face
then at school they made me run around with dictionaries on my back to reduce my energy
the killing self part is true happened numerous times in my life not even me wanting to just my brain imagining it happening
saw my mom try to kill herself multiple times, fall through glass tables, split her head open, bro tried to kill himself, tried to stab me,
he got cancer, schizophrenia, he got beat by my dad, Dad and I fought, brothers and I fought, Dad has something I dunno
thenetvines
The court footage shows him smirking, and laughing.
5exyPanda
Its never about justice, only what they can profit off.
WalksWithNoFear
It’s a legal system, not a justice system.
pandasmakemehappy
You don't have to be particularly intelligent or disciplined to be law enforcement in the USA.
BrdCdn
You won't get hired if you are.
UnluckyLunkhead
The department was likely happy to pay him to go away. Just don't ever come back.
Totallycasual
Such a disturbing video, it was like a life or death game of Simon Says.
bankruptsteve
Oh, this gets so much crazier when you listen to the victim wife’s tictocs(the birthing tree). I guess when he filed for bankruptcy, he —-
bankruptsteve
also requested to keep the gun with the (you’re fucked) engraving. Cause I guess when you have ptsd, you wanna keep the weapon associated —
bankruptsteve
to the events that caused the ptsd? He’s probably going to try and eBay the gun for 100k like that one dude did.
GrumpyOldMillennial
George Zimmerman.
bankruptsteve
That’s the one, thanks.
friedmonkey
Nasty piece of shit. That video was heartbreaking!
Snoopy101x
More and more each day I agree with and understand Frank Castle
skapanda616
Clarysage
Don't forget 'asked for and allowed to keep the murder weapon.'
jimidorjames2
What's his address?
DangerTrain
This sack of shit should be in jail. But instead, he gets to retire early.
ImgurPlz
He looks like a psychopath.
OtterSpaceExplorer
That's a requirement to be a cop in the US.
Trunkmonkay
He was involved in the shooting but he was NOT the one barking the commands. His superior was the one barking commands.
SarahKercz
This guy looks like he stalks teenage girls online.
svennisiggi
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Tgzo1fC49RY Mr ICE T with some refreshing perspective on the matter.
MemeLuminous
So police depts don’t do psychological tests or background checks.
MPatt08
Ffs
londonosierra2000
What does he know?
minatheghost
Works for a steel company in Glendale Arizona
thinlyveilednonsense
Gross incompetence and reckless indifference to the safety of others; they are dangerously under-trained.
SamaelTheVenomOfGod
Training isn't going to stop a sociopath from killing. Consequences do that. End qualified immunity.
ComfyPotato
You’re not wrong, but this case was a lot more than that
RabidBaby89
Would you please enlighten me? Sorry I don't know much of it
ComfyPotato
It’s graphic, if you can’t already tell: https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Shooting_of_Daniel_Shaver
HypnoJack
There are also many who receive the badge and gun but, in truth, are just not cut out to be cops. Like those easily spooked.
Nanuek
Not relevant to this case though. This is neither a training nor a performance under pressure issue
HypnoJack
Neither mine nor the comment I was replying to were talking specifically about this case.
TheActualDonKnotts
A lot of them are also psychopaths that want to hurt and kill people.
indyliberal
No training can fix what’s wrong with this murderer.
ShamaOA
It's not about training, it's about the job they do and the impunity with which they do it.
ZAPZAPMOTHAFUCKA
My question is, how the fuck are you supposed to crawl on your knees, with your feet crossed and your hands on your head?... Like WTFF?
Lobangpuki
He didn't have too when the cop ordered him to crawl towards them.
MorbidTitties
Hold up, let me animorph into a snake real quick so I don’t get shot ?
SewerRanger
You're not, but when you don't do it, then you're resisting arrest and not complying with an officers command so force is now "justified"
DanniLuxgarbe
Or, to take the position of a police advocate: the conflicting orders are deliberate ploy to try to force the suspect to use up mental /1
SewerRanger
I can buy that's the original intention, but when it's allowed to be used as an excuse for the person "not complying" is where things go
SewerRanger
wrong and shows that it needs to be fixed
DanniLuxgarbe
bandwidth so they are busy thinking about how the FUCK you can possibly comply instead of thinking about how to attack. Doesn't fucking work
DanniLuxgarbe
since it just gives an opportunity to the shittier cops to, as you said, swing the non-compliance cudgel and shoot ya.
Cr4zyC4tLady
Right, and I get the devils advocate thing. But I’ve mostly met the bad one. Very very few of the “good ones”. So hard for me to believe.
tbomber
Anytime theres a news story about a cop seemingly killed at random,this is the type of shit I think of and wonder what they got away with.
Adualion
Police have been getting away with way more than anyone knows for way longer than anyone can remember
ExtraJudicial
The "first" incident is never really the first.
GrumpyOldMillennial
Had a local cop killed. Given full honors. The truth was he was dirty and was running a protection racket. One of the dealers killed him
GrumpyOldMillennial
Because he got tired of the squeeze. None of this ever became official or common knowledge. The dealer was never arrested either....
dickable
I tend to smile, because I know it caught up to them. It's not justice, but sometimes it's all the accountability you can get.
datphone777365
When?
TormentedPenguin
But it's usually the good cops getting killed, and that is why the good cops hate bad cops more, they are the one's in danger from it.
ArkoneAxon
This is why good cops need to finally accept: the "don't snitch" stuff NEVER helps good people. Just the bad ones.
TormentedPenguin
lots of cops report other cops.. its just never in the news, cuz blueman bad.
ArkoneAxon
It's been reported here on Imgur plenty of times - along with how the bad cops suffered no repurcussions and the "snitches" got punished.
tbomber
How is it usually good cops getting killed? Is there a statistic i can look up? Serious ?...does someone keep track?
TormentedPenguin
just look up the police killed during ambushes.. it's never the assholes, usually random cops, and sometimes not even with same dept.
TormentedPenguin
I could understand someone going after a specific cop for a specific reason, but that is never the case.
TjD1974
Seriously, from a european point of view the whole US justice system is a clusterfuck
katejo2000
hahaha "justice" system.
TormentedPenguin
as a European you also don't have cities with 3 dozen shootings and 6 homicides in a weekend.. That's Chicago alone.
phillysokayest
As a European city they also have nowhere near the same economic inequality
TormentedPenguin
neither do we in Canada, which is why I always opt to have communities work together over shit like gun control. Education is priority.
phillysokayest
Or both? Lol
MrGnatJonesEsq
From an American pov, the whole US justice system is a clusterfuck.
pareidoliaperson
Watching this from overseas too and I'm like ? also ar15, with a cop??
Asteroidrules
Police carry guns, that's not uncommon.
MrNardtastic
They dont need AR-15s
Asteroidrules
Most European police carry G36s.
whatsisname
Point for accuracy: Brailsford was not the one shouting out the commands, it was another cop who was playing lethal simon says. That other
Grey56
Thank you for clarifying. Makes it worse that the department saw fit to send what are obviously young LEO's into such a situation.
TormentedPenguin
how hard to say.. turn around, on knees. interlock fingers...Police then approach like a felony stop.. done. This is one of the worst shoots
pyr0chaos
Its not hard, they didnt care. He just wanted to fire his shooty shooty bang bang at the "bad guy"
Cr4zyC4tLady
Yeah, they told him like 3 times that they’d shoot him. They wanted to. There was no reason not to approach and cuff him.
TormentedPenguin
and they need to be locked up. His ass needs to be sued civil so the widow can have his pension.
whatsisname
cop has fled to the Philippines, and he's just as much responsible.
PinkyTheUnicorn2
Sounds like he went to the perfect place if he wants to be a cop who shoots civilians.
CongratsYouAreHereNow
Someone could go there and cut his nuts off if they were so inclined
HollywoodHells
Don't forget to sprinkle a lil crack on him and call the Filipino cops. That's entertainment.
itsmy1stsmokebreak
I feel like I remember 2 cops yelling conflicting orders for a bit at first but I'm not watching it again to verify.
Greyeyes1973
It's a common technique. Keep barking conflicting orders and it keeps them disoriented
itsmy1stsmokebreak
Sound like a great way to run into those "they're resisting" situations. But my comment's based off memory so I could be wrong on this one.
Cr4zyC4tLady
You’re exactly right. The entire time they scream conflicting orders. They’re trained that way to justify force. It’s a training problem.
gashmaneatspie
Philip grew up having his lunch $ taken from him on the schoolyard.Got himself a badge and instantly became a faux tough guy he is a POS
SciFiGuy2018
The video is gut wrenching.
oowt
You could see him jerking himself off in his head given all the power he was wielding. I am power itself!
DHDragon
"I'm not here to be tactful or diplomatic with you." Literal quote from the asshole. Caught on body cam.
amiurume
The video haunts me.
grizel
Is this the cop that shot the guy in the hotel hallway?
[deleted]
[deleted]
Ikindajustliketopopoff
Let’s not do that
buffalowineguy
You spelled "taxpayer burden" wrong.
Shellbear3000
He murdered that poor guy. Breaks my heart! I would be dead if it were me!
evastria
Yep, that murderer Philip Brailsford
SarahDancePainter
Talking about Philip Brailsford, the murderer? I coulda sworn we were talking about PhilipBrailsford, the murderer who murdered people.
sandwichmunchies
Daniel Shaver was his name. I'll never forget his sobs and pleas.
Nalianna
He's the one that murdered Daniel Shaver, yes.
smirkinchicken
Yes. It's.. It's just a terrible to watch video.
HairySweatNoodle
No protests for this?
Plumberdude
The video is fuckin disturbing to say the least
Avlaen
yup fuck him with a fucking rusty spoon in the ear.
donutposse11337
Ouch. Right in the hallway
Codybill
Innocent man with his hands up, begging for his life
AnticlockwiseMetamorphosis
A lot of stuff that disturbs me doesn't "stick in my head", but I will never be able to forget the footage from that.
IllBeOverAt5
I really wish I hadn't watched it
AnticlockwiseMetamorphosis
And I've done a co-op with hospital security in emergency/psychiatry. Nothing there compared to this video.
ThePip
Cop told victim to fall on his face if he has to but he better not put his hands down. The poor drunk victim's shorts were falling off and
ThePip
he reached to pull them up and got pelleted with dozens of shots. They just had to walk over to him instead. They had bulletproof vests. :(
mratio
JFC
ISillyRabbit
*murdered....
brantstamps
Shmurdered
mratio
Silly rabbit, truth is for kids ;)
MechaNinja
I mean yeah he murdered him but saying he shot him is also accurate.
YourUpstairsNeighbor
Shot can sometimes result in both parties involved living. "Killed" is more accurate.
MDAlchemist
"killed" is more precise, and "murdered" even More so. But "shot" is just as accurate. (Precision=/=accuracy)
RegaraHontha
He was shot, he was killed, AND he was murdered. Killed/murdered isn't more accurate, it's listing the a part of what happened.
RegaraHontha
Also the fact that people can get shot and survive is irrelevant. with your logic i could argue you're more inaccurate because you're 1/2
nclu
Body mineral lead level adjustment
lumberjackman
a vaccine to protect against the most annoying facets of life, like embarrassing situations
Demonlettuce
Aliven't
danceswithkittons
Dark and satisfying
IAmDrBanner
Yes, just one mistake the OP did is that the guy yelling orders and the guy who shot are not the same person.
Carlinium
Ooft pretty big distinction. So is the guy pictured the guy giving orders or the guy shooting.
IAmDrBanner
That is the guy who took the shot.
JackieTreehornProductions
they both gave conflicting orders
IAmDrBanner
They are both assholes, I am not defending either. I am just saying they weren't the same person.
RatchetnClank
Real hard to watch, don’t suggest you watch it unless you want to ruin your day
Cr4zyC4tLady
Oh god. I read this and STILL watched it and my heart fucking HURTS now. Oh fuck. Dammit.
Establishment
yep
grizel
Ah, a proper cunt then...Untrained assholes on a powertrip...
BusterH
GrizzlySaint
DOT
MemeLuminous
What the ....
thatguywhohasnoname
Please tell me that was intended for effect
IceWeaselX
Nope, just a plain failure. He was bleeding, but he tried to play it off.
BusterH
Nah, he shot himself
L4doNG
And he asked to keep his gun (which he got). PTSD my ass. A nice reminder.
skuldthenornir
People can be weird but from my own experience I wanted to burn everything connected to the source of my ptsd.
ImmaCatImmaSexyCat
Evil bastard kept a souvenir of his kill like a goddamn serial killer.
Misterdruglicious
PTSD "means" you want to kill yourself with your weapon because you feel helpless and overwhelmed and thats the only thing you can feel?
Misterdruglicious
I think I have PTSD, on good days I still fantasize about blowing my brains out, not like willfull fantasy, its like shivers you feel it
Misterdruglicious
then you dont, but you know you felt it
KatieIsALady
Sure, we're saying if this guy has PTSD from this incident maybe he deserves it.
Misterdruglicious
well I guess PTSD is a spectrum today I learned
Misterdruglicious
do you think Nazi subjects got PTSD from killing their own people, absolutely no sympathy for this guy he deserves to hang
Misterdruglicious
my point is if doing something bad gives you ptsd you desreve it
skuldthenornir
That’s not ptsd. That some other form of mental illness. Ptsd often has people reliving traumatic events.
Misterdruglicious
but I dont think it is ptsd, more I just remember things well
Misterdruglicious
I relive the events in my mind, its what makes the feelings not feel the same way, stopped doing weed and alcohol, mush helped, so did mdma
Misterdruglicious
theres this time my dad was riding with me sitting in front snowmobile, five foot high jump comes up he falls off I go off smash my face
Misterdruglicious
then at school they made me run around with dictionaries on my back to reduce my energy
Misterdruglicious
the killing self part is true happened numerous times in my life not even me wanting to just my brain imagining it happening
Misterdruglicious
saw my mom try to kill herself multiple times, fall through glass tables, split her head open, bro tried to kill himself, tried to stab me,
Misterdruglicious
he got cancer, schizophrenia, he got beat by my dad, Dad and I fought, brothers and I fought, Dad has something I dunno