
smashole
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Been drinking pretty heavy for last 8 years " my dads death". At my worst I was drinking around 18-24 beers a day. I had been down to around 6-12 a day. But finally got fed up with it. I was gonna lose the most important thing in my life. My wife! I was on a path to self destruction. So I swallowed my pride and went to the er. Told them what was going on. My drinking my anxiety etc. I was able to quit cold turkey that day. I was on a few meds to help with the cravings and the withdraw symptoms for the first few weeks. I'm not gonna lie to ya. I still have cravings to drink. But they aren't very often. I just tell myself " Hey, we dont do that anymore". Then I refer to the list of reasons I don't drink.
1.i don't want my kids growing up calling their dad a drunk
2.i grew up in a house of drinkers. Listening to my parents fight. I don't want my family like that
3.money
4.takes my time away from my wife/kids/stuff around the house
5.not a healthy long term habit
6.not a good example for my kids
7.i drink for the wrong reasons
8. I turn into a different person
9.i drink to relieve stress, then it causes more stress
10.makes me focus on the negative thoughts more
11.hungover all the time
12.i don't need a crutch in life for bad times or to have fun
13. Not fair to my family or myself or friends
14. Alcoholism runs in my family
15. I have a hard time controlling my anger
16.hard to handle unexpected stress/problems
17. I pee alot / abusing my liver and kidneys
18. I don't want to be that person anymore
19. I'm a better person sober
20. I don't want my kids growing up having issues with alcholic
21. When my my wife looks into my eyes, I want her to know it's the real me looking back at her.
22. Dui would eventually happen / kill someone or myself.
I just wanted to post this as hope for other people. If I can do it. So can you! You are stronger than you think! You are a better person sober. You don't need booz to deal with life. If you want to chat that's cool. I'm gonna keep putting one foot in front of the other and stay focused. Small steps small changes turn into big changes. Thank you for reading. Have a great day!
esbi72
Great job op! Thank you for sharing
smashole
Thanks. The ppl on imgur have helped me alot!
JavaCofe
Yes brother. You're doing the thing! It's bloody hard counting but believe me they're precious. Every single hour sober better than the last. 2ys 11mo 1wk Sober 👍
smashole
Man that's awesome! Good for you!
mrpink83
30 days for me too! :)
smashole
Dude good for you!!!!
JustaSimplePlumber
I’m proud of you, sending a big dad hug your way kid.
smashole
JustaSimplePlumber
smashole
Hardest thing in ever went through was losing my dad. Found out he had stage 4 lung camcer and was gone in 6 months. The virtual hug means a lot.
discotheque42
TongueLasher
I am proud of you as well!
You Got This!
smashole
Thank you.
smashole
Thank you. I'm proud of me too! I have a very hardtime being proud of myself for anything.
SalParadise81
Hell yeah duder!
smashole
Thanks for reading. I hope you have a great day!
glovelyday
Keep going. You've got this.
smashole
Thank you!
smashole
It sounds silly. But it really is day by day. Thank you.
Hrafna55
It is. I'll be at four years in just under a couple of months. Some days are hard but mostly I don't even think about it. You said you got fed up with it. I remember when that happened to me. I just looked at my drink and thought 'I don't want to do this anymore'.
smashole
Hardest thing I've ever undertaken. And one time I told my wife she to calm down she was acting like her mother.
bladderinfection
smashole
Good for you!
magicaljeep
Congrats to you. Keep up the good work. I know it isn’t easy.
smashole
Thanks. It's definitely the hardest thing I've ever done.
Baltzdelirium
Damn that's great
smashole
Thank you. It's been rough to say the least.
Baltzdelirium
I could only imagine. Quitting nicotine is tough for me. I'm off the wagon currently and constantly disappointed in myself lol
Bardcrest
That is quitter talk! Keep it up, OP
smashole
I'm trying! Thank you
Bardcrest
And you use a reaction gif of...an alcoholic...appropriate
smashole
Hey, he's had his ups and downs. Like all of us.
Bardcrest
This is QUITE the 'down': https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Demon_in_a_Bottle
smashole
HiHowAreYou92
Just spent two weeks sober. Unfortunately drinking again but I am going to give it another shot this week and try and go a while month hopefully even forever. I started drinking as a coping mechanism for my anxiety and unfortunately it's the only thing I have found that works, but i'll figure it out. I know sobriety feels great.
smashole
Hey, good for you for trying. It's scary! But I look at it this way. It's took you " me" awhile to get into the spot your in. It's gonna take awhile to get out of it. Just keep getting up dusting yourself and trying again. That's extremely hard to do. To keep failing at something. And telling yourself do it again. Try again!
HiHowAreYou92
I appreciate the encouraging words. I'll get back to a good place I know it. I know how good it feels to not be tired every day.
smashole
You know you best. You do you. Good luck!
sjbrooksy7447
That is amazing! Congrats on starting this journey of self improvement.
smashole
It all starts with one step.
CyberpunkEnthusisast
Well done. Everytime I attempt it, I turn the news on and think fuck it.
smashole
I totally get that! Gotta focus on you and your goals. Not the world. Like the scene from Independence Day where Jeff Goldblum gets drunk and says fuck it and starts trashing the office.
Ifailupward
48 years old. Same story for the last 25 years. 23 days here…
The struggle is real brother. Keep it up!
aluckygrl
smashole
Good for you! It's tough. But we can do it! I'm here for you. So are a alot of other people. In your life and on the interwebs.
Ichigeki
Good job homie, I’m 7 month clean myself. It can be done!
smashole
Hey that's great to hear good for you! It's definitely worth doing! Scary but worth doing.
TripUpStairs
I'm happy for you and your family. Love your list. I made my husband a steak dinner Friday night to celebrate a sobriety milestone. In the beginning he went to a 30 day rehab,, after a hospital detox stay. I had given him an ultimatum that we would leave if he didnt get help, and he chose to go to the ER. AA has something right when they say alcoholism leads to jsils, institutions, or death. Super proud of you! Stay busy and counseling may be helpful too.
smashole
Thank you. Your husband sounds like he made the right choice. Good woman, loving kids vs. Booz. I hope he's doing well!
TripUpStairs
Aww shucks, thanks.
hockey4mal8
That's a great list!
smashole
Thanks. I had all those thoughts running through my head. It felt good to sit down and get it all out on paper.
Lori123456
Hi Here, I'm Dad. Also, congratulations.
smashole
gwad
It gets easier. You got this.
smashole
I sure hope so! It's definitely not getting harder! Thank you.
aluckygrl
smashole
aluckygrl
I look at it this way , you are giving up one thing in order to have everything but most of all it’s freedom
smashole
That's very true. Look at my back!!! What's not there anymore? Monkeys!!
aluckygrl
❤️
dcl88
Those are rookie numbers. You gotta pump up those numbers . I'm al seriousness congrats, good luck and have fun!
smashole
KiddR78
smashole
spanksir
If you ever have any craving or troubles AA meetings are a google away. You don’t need to buy in to it all the way but it’s definitely a good starting point at looking at why you use it to cope. It only gets easier. 5 yrs sober now and couldn’t have done it without my AA community
smashole
Idk how i would do. Can you just go and listen? I don't have to talk do i?
MrsHowVeryDareYou
Ask your doctor about Naltrexone - changed my life! Helps A LOT with cravings. I was so mad that I hadn’t known it exists sooner.
dorkyducks
Thank you for mentioning this.
smashole
I was on that for over a month. I thinknit was contributing to my bad dreams.
PastureofMuppets
Check with your doctor -- it really helps from what ive seen with others, and your bad dreams may have just been withdrawal brain.
smashole
I'm still having withdraw brain I think. My dreams are very vivid in color and I could tell you about them when I woke up. It sucks!
sethb1978
Same
sethb1978
I’m fortunate enough that I don’t get physical withdrawal despite drinking heavily for 25 years but whenever I quit I have horrible dreams for about a week or two. It’s a psychological thing for me I guess. I’ve had friends who get dt’s and that finally made them quit but I’ve always rationalized my drinking because I don’t get withdrawals. 12-20 drinks a day is not rational. I’ve been sober for a week now and I have to remember that it gets better everyday and the boredom eventually goes away
smashole
I drank out of boredom a lot! It does get easier. Get chipping away! Little by little.
Joylove
21. Too deep my dude. Ouch
smashole
That's my personal favorite one.
smashole
I really tried to be honest with myself when I made that list. I feel that's one of the steps I needed to take I order to truly be able to do this. I've been telling myself lies for to long. About why I drank, when it was ok to drink and how much I could drink.
Omicron416
Good for you!
smashole
Thank you!
TaylorPowers
Way to go!! It gets so much better!! Keep it up!!
smashole
Man i hope so! Thank you.
Bass637
Nice! Good on ya, man. I've passed the six month mark myself. You leave people behind sometimes when doing so, but it's no different than anything else. If people try to become hemorrhoids over your decision don't be afraid to lop them off like they deserve to be.
smashole
Good for you!
smashole
Bass637
It's more than that too. People do outgrow each other as well. Getting sober made me realize that. Not all friendships are meant to be forever. Drinking is only a portion of the equation.
smashole
That also very true. I only have like 2 or 3 friends. Counting my wife. Those 2 friends and I have been friends for almost 20 years. My one friend is having a very difficult time quitting booz. I feel guilty telling him I'm going on 31 days. Like I don't want to make him feel bad. Like I'm calling him a closer or whatever ya know what I mean? If I had a hard time quitting something and my friend was able to quit really easy. I'd feel like a failure even more.
Bass637
That shouldn't make you feel like a failure, not everyone is built the same. Sometimes it is easier for others to give up drinking. Everyone is built differently. Though I get the feeling you were talking from his perspective. The struggle of giving up a vice is a personal one, looking at another's progress and comparing yourself to them literally can send you backwards on that ladder.
smashole
Yeah i get ya. I try not to bring it up. Everyone has their own battles. I still have a really hard time not drinking. It's been over a month. But I still have pretty strong waves of wanting to drink. Especially watching football or while Im cooking. Thanks for responding.
Chaplain415
Hang in. You are doing better than you think.
Grats on Levels
smashole
I have a hard time giving myself credit for most things. I could build a rocket ship and go to the moon. And the voice inside my head would say " meh"
Chaplain415
Hope you are still hanging in. Pulling for you.
smashole
Hey!yeah I'm still sober! Thanks for writing back a few weeks away. Wish the world had more people like you in it.
Chaplain415
Stay strong through the Hellidays
smashole
I got 60 plus days! Thanks for thinking of me. Hope your doing well.
smashole
Sorry i used the same gif.