Cenadog
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Came out as trans to finally really feel like my true self and basically everyone has left me. My family won't talk to me now. My girlfriend who said she supports and has a lot of trans friends is gone. Packed up and moved while I was at work. At least rent paid for this month but can't afford it with just me. At least I have my dog with me. She been by my side every day. Just needing to vent and try to figure out what to do since money was tight before but now its worst. I should of just kept my true self hidden away.
Teratoid
My friend, I'm so very sorry. But this Boston dad would give you the biggest hug.
simtanic8
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JigglySackles
I don't know that repressed would've been better in the end or not. I'm no seer. And while it's no comfort now that their actions speak to their character and not yours, it's true.
Have yourself a pity party. Mope for a couple days. Despair and cry into the void and hold your dog.
But at the end of those couple days, force yourself to pick yourself up and figure your next steps. I wish I was in a position to help with more than words and I wish you had more time now to grieve your loss.
JigglySackles
The char limit on here is stupid and unhelpful for trying to have a meaningful interaction.
Grieving the loss of important pillar connections is one of the hardest things. You'll be ok eventually. You'll find new people, and these people will accept you as you are. So long as you try to find them.
For earning rent, review your skills. You may have to bust serious ass for a time until you get something better. char limit again, but I hope you land on your feet soon. Best of luck, cheering 4 u.
spontaneous9
Nobody said this was going to be easy, but you knew that already.
If you're skeptical about affording your current place, don't wait until the end of the month to bust a move. If there's another municipality you've had your eye on, now is the time to liquidate assets and flow there. Clearly, seeking comfort with your former associates is no longer a viable option.
Bear up, OP. It's you and doggo celebrating the opening of a new chapter of your life. Plan for the worst and hope for the best.
Cenadog
I'm trying to figure out something. She took a lot of stuff but it can be replaced.
dickblack12
I'm so sorry. They found out who you were and you found out who they were. They are being monsters to you. If you start to feel bad, remember, it is up from here. Living the rest of your life pretending to be someone else would have ben hard and terrible.
DemonKysho
Cenadog
Just why did I blow up a good life just to finally feel like my true self. Should of just kept it hidden.
DemonKysho
That's a matter of perspective. You embraced and exploring who you are. That isn't up for me or anyone to decide but yourself.
I cannot understand completely, but "I know what it's like to be persecuted by your own country for the accident of your birth." As for keeping it hidden, I think about all those people that hid their true selves just to survive. Some dying with it. We all deserve more than surviving, we deserve to live.
You get up every day, find out the days answer, and do it again.
wspottedhawkw
Your parents and girlfriends reactions are a reflection of their character, not yours. I’m sorry to hear you’re struggling but proud that you’re taking steps to being true to yourself. Keep your chin up.
Cenadog
I'm trying but its hard.
thrashingcows
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lapus
You are not alone.
Cenadog
Definitely feels like it. Just hope it gets better.
lapus
I know it does. I know you are looking around like John Travolta for your people. We are here. You are just too tired to look. Pm me an I can hook you up with people that are where you are or someone that has made it all the way through. We are here when you are ready.
Cenadog
I definitely will..could use the help