Real Monsters (a different perspective of mental health disorders)

I was diagnosed somewhere around the age of 9 or 10. My father however decided to shelf the diagnosis and hide it with the next in the list. Having rediscovered the diagnosis it has put some of my life situations into perspective that didn't make sense back in the past.

For instance, how did an average student who put no effort in max out the ASVAB when they were taking it to see how bad they would fail so they could learn how to study it?

I was diagnosed with ADHD when that was the popular thing for doctors to do in the early 90s. This is also when they were testing out a myriad of different medications on children to see what would work. I remember being on what was probably Adderall. I lost all of my personality ,but did okay in school work.

There are also a lot of other situations including the diagnosis of autism that was being hidden from administrators and other people within my life situation. Thanks Dad... (He was ashamed of it)

I have both childhood PTSD from being abused by an alcoholic mother and father. As well as other people in my life.

I have complex PTSD from my time in the Army as an intelligence analyst and things experience during my time in Afghanistan as well as some of the horrible things the Army puts you through stateside.

A few years ago something snapped. I never was really excited to be in groups but couldn't handle it for the most part. Now I have crippling anxiety that will leave me having vasovagal episodes on the floor at the aspect of being in too large of a social situation that I cannot easily escape. This is a problem that has quite literally started to ruin my life. On top of the after mentioned things start to get bad.

And then there's classic anxiety. Due to the abuse and Life experiences there's not a time in my life not a moment that I can remember that I wasn't worried.

Anxiety but stronger. When I was was in the military part of my job was to do what is called a threat brief. In short I was presenting the information about the worst case scenarios that were plausible, probable, or even unlikely. The knowledge that rattles around in my brain about stupid things that most will think in consequential destroys me daily. The worst part of it is I can't talk about it. Not even because of classification or any of that. It's a mix of really boring technical stuff, and a whole bunch of what ifs.

This brings depression. Everything above has culminated into this beast. Be it people not being relatable, not really understanding my situation after I've explained it. Or myself missing social cues, etc. Depression sets in and tanks everything. This is the rock that keeps pulling me further and further into the depth

I'm not diagnosed ocd. I've been told I have some tendencies that other diagnoses mimic. However, this certainly does not count as a diagnosis.

Another I am not diagnosed with. Moving forward if I am not diagnosed with I'm going to put an n/a. If you have any of these that you would like to speak to I would love to hear anything you have to say down below.

When the VA started to look at me they immediately thought I was bipolar. When I got more fine tune observation this was found to be everything I listed above in a sloppy package not bipolar disorder.

Wtf is sleep. I cannot say my diagnosis include this, though all mine have somewhere effects.

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This is what I'm currently going to be asking about. I have zero friends, no social life. Not for others lack of trying. There are even many people on here that might even comment that they've reached out. I shut down rapidly when things get bad and burn bridges. If I have done this to you I'm truly sorry and I don't mean it. I guarantee you didn't deserve it.

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If any of these or any combination of these creep around your life please feel free to comment below. I would encourage you to share things that maybe people don't know about.

There are many that are not listed that the artist has yet to create. If this is the case please feel free to share, and even maybe some descriptors.

I found these years ago when they were brand new and post them occasionally. These have helped a few people including myself identify the qualities of diagnosis in a different light rather than the typical medical straightforward that is typical.

The source is below. If you found these informative. The original creator offers PDF versions for use.

*I do not represent the artist or their work. Just another individual that found it helpful

Source:
https://www.zestydoesthings.com/realmonsters