Screaming into the void

TMI warning***
So something is terribly wrong with my insides. My entire life I've had stomach problems. At 19 my gallbladder stopped working and after the 7 months of torture my doctors finally figured it out. Even after they removed it I never got completely better.

Whatever is wrong with me has been going into overdrive trying to kill me this year, and I've finally starting seeking a diagnosis. ***I get the equivalent of the stomach flu once a week at this point. I get excrutiating abdominal pain, sulfer burps, throw up bile almost exclusively, and everything runs through me like a river to the point that I need a towel under me at all times. Nausea medicine no longer helps at all. My GI doc ran some tests a few weeks ago and found my white blood cell count and inflammatory markers were through the roof.

Yesterday i finally got a colonoscopy and endoscopy where they found nothing. I almost cried when they told me this. I got sick again today and ended up in the ER when the pain got too bad. After multiple doses of morphine and a couple bags of saline it was manageable. They did a CT which showed a lot of inflammation and I almost cried in relief that they found something. It's not a diagnosis but it's something. A step in the right direction.

I'm at my limit. I'm terrified to eat. I'm terrified I'm going to lose my job. I haven't worked there long enough to use FMLA, and can't afford to just not have a job.

I've gotten to the point where if my stomach gets upset I have to fight off a panic attack and keep from crying because I know how much I'm going to hurt later.

I just need an answer. Any diagnosis. I have no idea what's wrong with me and it's terrifying. I wish I hadn't ignored being sick in my 20s. Now I'm looking at insane medical bills and trying not to think about it.

TL;DR - I'm really sick and don't know why. I'm hitting a wall trying to deal with it and I'm scared.

Just needed to vent. Let it die in usersub or whatever.