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I'm not looking for advice, I'm not looking for the internet points, and I'm not looking for resources to help me through this. I'm going to be fine. I'm not depressed, I'm just sad.
I just felt the overwhelming need to post outside of my social circle.
*The phrase "self termination" is so my post doesn't get shot down.*
kitsnpils
I'm really sorry. That sounds like a lot to handle. I'm hoping you've got some friends/family who can give you some love/support.<3
GilliamTheButcher
My favorite uncle drank himself to death the night before my 13th birthday, which I didn't find out until I found him laying on the floor. Every year, my family reminds me of it. Sometimes you really do need to just get out of your circle. I'm just going to leave you with a very insightful reddit post I found some time ago.
lapus
Listen.. this is how i ended up in the mental facility. I attempted on Monday as well. It is NOT your fault. I learned that my 2 cousins who did succeed were bipolar. Now I'm checking into that. Hold tight!!
fluens
My old man passed naturally and then my older brother not so naturally. It gets easier OP.
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Thank you
Lepidopterous
I’m sorry OP. It might not be soon, but I hope you can find inner peace and your new normal, and that the future is kind and gentle to you.
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StopTheWorldIWannaGetOff
Lost a family member same way last year. Investigations are still ongoing and we have to wait before we can move his body. It's been hell. You have my utmost condolences and sympathy
OffTheGrid99
It will all be ok in the end. If things are not yet ok? Then it’s not the end.
LendLeaseIdentity
Speaking as someone who's been through it, sometimes life is really, incredibly, stupidly hard to do. I made it through, on my own strength and with some very good help from those trained to do it. Never discount your own strength, OP and reader. And if you've got access to help, ask for it.
nickamont
That's really rough. Lost my Dad last year, too. I still can't believe it sometimes.
ParallelParkingInABurka
Oh my god, I'm so very sorry OP.
UsedCarSalesChick
I’m just here to offer a hug. I’m so sorry; you are loved.
mmfrancis
It’s OK to be sad
soumen
Sorry to hear that.
nickamont
I don't get this whole thing online where we have to use euphemisms for serious topics like suicide or any number of others. If the algorithms are improperly removing posts, the algorithms should either not be there or be fixed.
iovebeans
I'm sorry OP. That sucks hard and isn't fair.
Patronsaintofboredom
Thank you. feel it. I'll get through it though.
hiyo365
There's no words - but if you need someone to chat about this or something completely random, I'm here. *hug*
Awmph
You are a part of the family too
~ a dad
GilliamTheButcher
My favorite uncle drank himself to death the night before my 13th birthday, which I didn't find out until I found him laying on the floor. Every year, my family reminds me of it. Sometimes you really do need to just get out of your circle. I'm just going to leave you with a very insightful reddit post I found some time ago.
BeardicPerformance
Your family sucks. I’m so sorry to hear that.
GilliamTheButcher
https://old.reddit.com/r/Assistance/comments/hax0t/my_friend_just_died_i_dont_know_what_to_do/c1u0rx2/?context=3
Totallyscrewedinaustin
That's well put
Duckpocalypse
My brother did the thing in 08. I have a pretty good idea what you're feeling and going through. If you want to talk, i can help!
iatezola
deep peace of the earth to you
Mikeiller
Does Imgur not even allow the word "suicide" anymore?
MartynMage
It is absolutely allowed. Many people, however, opt not to use it because of the negative connotation it evokes
TogeEpine
Thank you for the reply.
MartynMage
TogeEpine
nubblebun
It's not your fault. It's not your fault. It's not your fault.
IIikethecutofyourjib
My goofy boy hopes you smile again soon
ClamuelSlemons
I want to send my love your way; too, from a rando internet stranger, and echo the kind feelings of others. Just know you aren't alone. 💙💙💙
Wrinkle666
I get out in Nature it clears my head my father died and my big brother also ended his journey early within 2 years .I Love them and I'm very glad of the time we had together. I play all the music my brother introduced me too sat on his single bed sharing some big old headphones with a 10mm jack .
Sakera
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Thank you
Sakera
You’re welcome.
prawnklng
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somethingsomethingwittyhere
Ditto, and stay strong @OP.
Harbltron
I'm sorry for your losses. I wish the best for you and yours going forwards. Here's a picture of my cat with a toy stuck on each paw.
TheJudgeHolden
Don’t blame yourself. That’s the most important thing. You can always think oh I could’ve done this or that, but don’t blame yourself
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Trying
Goldensands
Well fking try harder because it's fking not. If this comes off as aggressive please know that that is entirely intentional. Fking life man, it'll get you. Best to you
IFoldlyGo
The brother might have also been thinking about the family, and tried to hide things so nobody else would be saying "why didn't I see the signs". It is because the brother did his best to prevent any signs from being there.
ionlyregisteredtosavelinks
But how do you know OP is not to be blamed, huh?
Lepidopterous
Read the room. JFC.
TheMostKink
What the fuck is this insinuation?
OffTheGrid99
Why would you assume he is?
Av8rgrl
Standing beside you in quiet understanding solidarity.
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