Suns getting real low big guy

I have friends who approached me every time I try to start something new. I tend to do VERY well in what I do, but I cannot maintain it due to lack of time. One friend, she wanted to be a VTuber. I will drop her link below in a bit. She approached me while I was doing reaction content as a VTuber...I know so original. However I helped her setup, learn the basics, and then a bit of guidance on streaming. She is now 4 years strong I believe. She is doing well, but I can't help feel envious of her and the situation. https://www.twitch.tv/silverstrikers

Another recently just got out of the military and was having a mental meltdown, a existential crisis almost. He started writing about thought process' and how they go through cycles, conscience or not. He started writing a few months ago because I have been trying to write a book for 2 years (longer because getting the info out in a way that feels comfortable and not a lore dump is hard af) and he loves talking about the backstory of it with me. I went through all his chapters and proofread/corrected the structuring while keeping the integrity intact. Well a company that is willing to market it and publish it for him for a % just got passed his way. Once again, I am envious of his situation.

Another is one I brought into DnD. He didn't want to play but I ran a solo adventure with miniatures and terrain. He was hooked instantly as a winged bird ranger. (can't remember how to spell the race's name). After not being able to find many games, he became a DM too. It was great for me because I have been a forever DM. I showed him how I tried to market myself as a paid DM but I didn't have the time to dedicate it to the craft. He took the advice and FLOURISHED. He doesn't have a big popular company or anything, he just runs it on his discord with tips being his payment, not necessary. He makes almost 800 a week sometimes running 2 games with 6 people in each. I am so proud of what he has done and how he has captured his creative spark to help him earn a living...but once again I am envious of his situation.

I tried to make games, World Class on Steam, but I....once again....don't have time for it. I showed one of my friends how to code using Unreal Engine and how simple it was to look up blueprints and what not. He creates particle effects for sale on the Unreal Marketplace for...in my opinion too much...but people buy it all the time. I truly am happy that he is also doing what he loves. He is really good at it and is currently working on a game that I think will take off (I cannot share name because I don't know if he wants me to yet).

Anyways, enough venting. Gunna sit down and write more of my book today just had to get these pent up feelings out first so they don't bleed into the book XD